Life is not happy,
Life is bleak.
Nothing to look forward to,
Nothing to go seek.
All is forever set in stone,
The path is frozen in concrete.
All I know is nothing more,
All that I know has become pain.
No hope to have forever love,
All hope for that has been slain.
No hope for extra ordinary,
Everything is too mundane.
We only live within our minds,
All fear and pain to be rejected.
Soon everything will be revealed,
The light will illuminate the truth that was hid.
Our lease on life is just that,
A lease that is only a bid.
Life is only pain for all,
It can only be stopped like the rolling of a ball.
What am I to you now?
I no longer can guess,
I am tired of trying to give you the benefit of the doubt.
Salty tears fill my eyes, acid burning my face.
I am in between the void of friend and lover,
Your touch still sends a wave of emotions through me,
I am there for you when you need me,
But you deny everything and push away.
How many times are you going to push me away?
Can you not see through everything I never left you,
Even when you felt like you are not worth being cared for?
Can you not see that what happened to you is what you are doing to me?
You know that I care deeply and always will,
You know that I never used you,
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Excuse me, I know not
what I really mean.
Attempt after attempt,
trying to say exactly
what I try to,
again and again.
The cycle repeats,
I'm drunk again.
The cycle continues,
no hope for me, then.
Laughter, happiness,
things I have no role in,
carry on above me
while I sit here
in the dark,
left alone and lonely.
Maybe I should cast off
all ties to others.
Maybe I should leave.
Just let everything around
die and leave it be.
I wanna be drunk
when I wake up,
end up on the right side
of the wrong bed.
Forget my name,
forget my problems.
No champagne anymore
'cause I got nothing
left to celebrate.
Drink more beer,
maybe another scotch;
definitely more vodka,
with a little less tequila.
Maybe I'll stay that way
for a few years,
coping the only way I know how.
The song sounds syrupy,
the headset across the room
playing loudly, making sure
that I can hear well.
I'm being screamed at,
feeling smaller and smaller,
but I know I deserve it
for the things I've done.
It's the reason I drink,
trying to drown out the words
while my black heart continues
worshiping a dead star.
I try to leave this place,
to find the door to my cage
and kick it down, to escape
the monster I've become.
And in this place now hollow,
the memories always follow
and I drown in the echo,
knowing I'll never let go.
But I will cry for you
who do not see your beauty,
that you are perfect
like so many can only say;
dreams will bow down to you, and you
will be the greatness we aspire to.
The brilliance in your heart
only takes
a moment before the flash illuminates our love
and you
still stare into the mirror
searching
past the beauty,
for something that doesn't exist
Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining by Tikisomia, literature
Literature
Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining
Every cloud has a silver lining
Just as every sunbeam had a grain of gold
Just as every stream has a shard of quartz
Just as every blade of grass has a sliver of emerald
Just as every rose has a fragment of ruby
Just as every snowflake has a flake of crystal
Every cloud has a silver lining
Why then,
Are we poor?